Gill, I feel for you. I understand completely, we just feel like tiny boats tossed about on the water of our emotions. It's bewildering, isn't it? I don't know when the equilibrium returns. I was looking at photos of Dad last night and feeling so sad but just couldn't cry. It was just as upsetting as when I couldn't stop crying. I don't know why, it feels like Dad is disappearing if I don't feel upset all the time. We had Fathers' Day on Sunday and I expected it to be so hard but it wasn't, and I feel like I've betrayed him.
I'm not much help to you, I'm so sorry, I can only reassure you that we are frail and tiny when it comes to these huge events and the related emotions so I suppose we can just go with the flow. We can't have expectations of how we SHOULD feel, just accept the human condition and hope that time will bring a settling and place us back on calm waters.
Take care, dear Gill.
Stephanie, xxx
